64. J Mascis “Too Deep” Several Shades of Why [Sub Pop]
“Hasn’t changed much getting old.”
You don’t understand. I tried to stop him. Really, I did. He was getting pretty ridiculous and so I put my hands up, like I was trying to show him how crazy irate I was getting, or at least distract him, but he took it to mean that I was egging him on or something. He just kept whistling, trying to get the wolves’ attention, trying to purposely rile them up, like he was actively calling out a death wish. I didn’t dare open my mouth - I could barely eek out a noise, much less any kind of word or imperative. When I heard the sound of twigs and branches breaking I knew we were fucked. At first I closed my eyes, partly because it was reflex and partly because I wanted to pretend that if I couldn’t see them they couldn’t see me. Or maybe because I wanted to pretend for one goddamn second that Rick didn’t exist. But when I opened my eyes there he was, just smiling at me like an oblivious doofus. God, here I am, talking and alive and all I can say is what he an idiot he was. Who knows where he is. I don’t know if I can even get us back there, even if in the daylight. He has the dumbest luck though, so it’s possible he…I dunno…charmed the wolves out of attacking maybe? Hell, for all we know he could be rolling around in the snow with them, acting like a few dogs and their master, laughing and — but they probably aren’t. Wind’s dying down at least. Still cold though. Think this thing can go any faster? Yeah, I didn’t think so. Man, I hope he’s okay. C’mon, Rick. You knew what you were getting yourself into, right? You had to’ve known. They were howling right there in front of us.
Source: SoundCloud / subpop